It’s true. I just can’t help myself. When Chloe was a baby I used to think what a ‘time waster’ she was. I could just and and watch her…watch her sleep…watch her ‘watch’, not so much watch her cry! That bit wasn’t enjoyable.
Now she’s a toddler she’s still a time waster. I can’t help but watch this little person explore. Babble. Terrorise the dog. I can sit there for ages and just watch her. The washing piles up…the dust piles up…the missed calls pile up! While I’m sitting watching her. This little person is evolving. Her personality is shining through more than ever. Even when people are talking to me I often find myself shifting my gaze to watch her. Yep, I’m one of those mums where I can’t focus on a conversation because I’m too busy focusing on her!
She fascinates me. I want inside her head! I want to know what she is thinking? Is she thinking? Or just doing? If she is thinking is she thinking in her own ‘Chloe’ language? Or is she thinking with regular speech but is unable to verbalise that?
Some of the things I love watching her do and play in our lounge room. She wanders around, from her play kitchen, to the coffee table…. She tips the play food out, finds the coasters on the table and sorts them. She plays with her train saying ‘ooo oo’ which is her version of ‘choo choo’. In between the wandering around she likes to climb up on my lap and touch my nose and make faces. Then she scrunches her nose up and does this fake laugh! She also likes to pull my hair and will quite forcefully push my head to one to side to get to my hair! I’m not a huge fan of that game. She loves to get her Upsy Daisy and put her in the train and push it along.
She also non stop babbles…. seriously…. it’s non stop! She’s a talker. Yesterday she sat on my lap with a cooking magazine and pointed to the little square on the pictures on the page. She babbles something incoherently of which I interpret as ‘What’s this?’ and I reply ‘chocolate cake’ or ‘chicken’ and then she does the sign for ‘food’. Interesting. There’s definite signs of developing communication. Sometimes I wish I had videos of this stuff! Especially since her speech delay is quite significant now.
But gee…. it’s lovely to see her doing this regular kind of toddler stuff. Like climbing on the couch and wanting to jump off! It’s not a great activity for her to do but sure is nice to see her development. Now she’s allowed in more areas of the house, like the kitchen she does love to get into the food drawer. However, she doesn’t actually eat anything! Just likes to empty it out. She walks, almost runs into the kitchen if I’m there and she does like to ‘help’ empty the dishwasher!
I hate to admit it, but it would seem Chloe has inherited not only our ‘funky’ genes, but the majority of our stubbornness and unwillingness to do anything that isn’t on her terms. It’s Chloe’s way, or the highway! It’s a good part of her personality as it’s probably the motivation that propels her forward to learn new skills.
Chloe has always been very alert. Ever since she opened her eyes she wanted to know what was around her. I can remember at 4 weeks being hospital post surgery, she would lie contently in the arms of nurses at the nurses desk, content because she could see all the ‘happening’s around her. I got a lot of comments about how alert she was. This continues to this day. She really doesn’t miss a beat!
It’s this part of her I think that got her crawling, and up and walking…. she NEEDS to know what is going on and must investigate. However, if investigating means crossing into unfamiliar territory or onto sand then she stops! We’re working on that one!
This part of me she inherited is the part that propels me forward. I am my daughter’s voice! And I’ve been fighting for some stuff for a while now.
Funding. Funding. Funding. This is almost a dirty word to me right now. It’s a great word! If you can get it! Because SLOS is not listed on any government forms it’s hard to even get the ball rolling with getting funding. There’s just no ‘area’ on the forms to actually tick or detail that will describe the daily battles of SLOS and why early intervention is so important.
In Queensland we are waiting on the National Disability Insurance Scheme to come in (this is another rant) and there are some services provided by the government, state and federally funded. For the last 2 years we have received therapy services through our local Disability Services. Most of the girls in the team (OT, ST, PT and Psych) have been awesome. But changes occur and we have slowly been losing services. Speech being the major one! Which is of the most important area right now. I’ve also been unhappy with some other areas of her therapies but because I have no choices and these appointments and therapists are allocated to me my hands are tied. I’m trying to change this.
In addition to this Chloe’s AFOs (her leg braces) have stopped fitting, they started being a problem about 2 months ago. Problem is, the state will only fund one pair every 9-12 Months….you know, because it’s not like little kids feet grow or anything? These AFOs are about $2000 a go!
So I fight! An in an interesting turn of events I recently had the opportunity to talk with my local member of parliament! I had actually written an email (that was drafted and not yet sent) to my federal member when I got a buzz on our intercom. She was door knocking the local area and asking if people had any issues. My reply, ‘Actually, yes, yes I do have some issues, would you like to come in?’
So in she came and I bombarded her with my rant for nearly an hour! Jump forward to 2 weeks later and I get a call from the Carers QLD line for Better Start Funding (the federally funded money that carers are allocated to access services they need for intervention – something I’ve been struggling to get due to SLOS not being listed) and an email and phone call from the Director of Paediatric Clinical Services at our local hospital (who can fund a new pair of AFOs for Chloe).
Win win! That’s why I tell people, if you are having trouble with issues that affect the community/family, then get onto the local MP. They are there to help us after all. So hopefully now, with a very particular letter from our great paediatrician we will get Better Start funding. And an appointment in the next week the hospital Clinical director and he will complete the paperwork to fund Chloe’s new AFOs!
Guess who gets my vote at the next election!!
It’s been a busy time. Add to this some exciting news that since Chloe has settled into daycare and absolutely loves it, I’m going back to work full time next year teaching. I’m so thrilled as I was offered a permanent position at a great school just near where we live. It’s really an answer to prayer and perseverance as I’ve applied at this school three times! I can’t wait to get back into the classroom, it will be busy, with both Mike and I working full time, and will bring new stresses in and alleviate some other stresses, but it’s time to step out in faith. I don’t want to live in ‘special needs world’ and when you have a child with extra needs it’s so easy to do. One doctor appointment….to therapy….to doctor…. it’s ongoing.